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im aware this is gonna sound silly but I noticed my mental health getting worse around summer time, I try talking to my family sometimes but when I get to these topics I go nonverbal like something doesn't want me to talk about this stuff. i find it to be easier to go on social media where no one knows who I am irl and talk about whats bothering me, lately its been self-doubt and comparing myself to others in my family who are doing better like graduating, finding jobs, healthy relationships and just being happier since it doesn't help when my family compares me to them and says thing "my cousin's name has a job, you need one" like I know I do and I'm trying but they always do this. i love my family don't get me wrong but this affects me even when they don't realize it, mostly they joke about my weight which is my biggest insecurity to the point I eat once a day or not at all in hopes of losing weight which isn't healthy at all.
one of these days they'll stop comparing me to others as a bad example but for now I have to deal with it and act like I'm not bothered, who knows maybe they'll treat me like my cousins or siblings since they seen to get the positive attention without being used for money and stuff like that
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