I relate SO BAD!! I just got out of a relationship with an 18 year age gap lol. She is 40, I'm 22F. I find myself being attracted to older people all the time, I think it has something to do with obsessively reading historical romance at a young age lol. It's a tricky dating field. Like, all my friends who are around my age found our relationship to be creepy/predatory even though we were both very consenting adults. We broke up because I found it frustrating that I was doing all the cleaning/cooking/working while she sat around getting high all day. I thought that since she was much older that we would have a really mature and well balanced relationship, but that was unfortunately not true :(
Be very mindful of power balance in age gap relationships!!! It's important that neither of you are more dependent on the other, or else it becomes an unsatisfactory and borderline dangerous relationship. If the older partner has more power/authority it can def lead to some abusive situations.
There's nothing wrong with being attracted to older people, and most older people find it quite flattering when you flirt with them lol. Just be mindful and careful of relationship dynamics!
If you have any more questions or need specific advice hmu!!