Mild vent

I'm don't know why again and why I'm think is it's was a joke but kinda feel was joke gone wrong well in others days was my fourth my friend sitting and she's tells me some weird jokes this and say it I'm just do but today when my friend ask was is "that's not a joke it's a weird joke" I'm feel like suddenly sickening my personality and I'm though this life was if make jokes to someone it feel kinda funny but my mind was just feel wrong...I don't know why my friend do this to me I mean is my friend front my sit at school not my back front sit my friend and I'm just feel don't make a joke again cause I'm feel like a dumb...