ive become aware that i don't know how to have conversations with other people. one reason is because i have anxiety about social interactions and that idea is scary to me. another reason is i simply don't like talking to other people and don't get any enjoyment out of it. another reason is because i simply have nothing in my head to say.
the only reason i have friends is because i follow my girlfriend everywhere she goes
i feel constantly left out and as if I don't deserve friendships and i have found no improvement in this over the years. i urgently need to be able to make friends and keep friends but i just can't.
any advice/similar experiences is appreciated.