I never had a real partner (only short non serious online relationships), I've always been the funny friend of the group, always seeing my friends having a partner. And I tried to just accept it, because it is what it is, I'm not pretty, I'm not smart, I'm not special, I'm just me, and I understand why people don't like me because I don't like me eather.
That's why I hate falling in love, I know I have no change, so I have to wait, and wait, and wait, until I forget I'm in love. But waiting hurts a lot, it makes me feel stupid, it makes me feel useless, it makes me feel lonely.
I hate it so much, but I can't do anything, because I'm gonna be the funny friend forever.