I'm tired of the topics around self-harm being overly censored

I'm not even considered like a human being with reasoning anymore. I keep being deleted everywhere for asking questions around self-harm, and it makes me feel so alone. Censoring people asking for help to do less damage isn't the answer, it's better to have someone cut safer than reducing them to silence and let them continue to do it in worse ways.

I can't even ask people to share their own experiences in details because I feel like a pussy crybaby and need to know if I'm truly alone or not, but that require to ask people how they do it and how do they handle the pain, and so no online platform allows me to talk about that.

This is the exact reason why I never told anyone I know irl that I self-harmn even my therapist. I know people will stop trusting me, be more intrusive on me and stop seeing me like an intelligent human. Why can't people realize that treating us like that and forcing us to silence just make things worse ? Let me exchange with others our detailled process to feel less like freak and weirdos who don't deserve to exist, I'm not asking that because I want advices but because I feel so alone and not normal at all