Yep, it's complicated. Maybe, ehat you can learn with all this people is not being like them. I need my grades emotionally, and I'm trying to be a better person with my classmates, I don't care what the other people say anymore (at least I try to) I just want to be myself and be free. So, know your awesome just for ask for support, you can do it, It's just start to don't care (I think). I'm learning to be myself again, and I hope the advice be useful for you.
Here's my guess: You should do what you think it's right (sure don't be mean with other people) and try to be calm and good for yourself, don't forget to try to talk and join conversations with other people too (in real life or in online chats too).
That's it, bye. =3