plp who doesn't had a first love and have +19, how do you feel abt it? /lh

i'm close to turn 20, and many times think abt the fact that i NEVER had a lover, or someone who like's me. i think we grow up with a lot of preassure abt have a lover, and be happy with it even i think so many times there's something wrong with me o the way i look. idk, i think that isn't THAT important, but sometimes i really want to know how does feel be loved in a romantic way.