Hello hello, I'm skull (or at least that's my name here)
I know that more people right now have problems and are possibly going through the same or similar situations to mine.
but I wanted to describe a little of what I experience, not as a relief, but to know if a person goes through the same thing. Lately my life feels monotonous, I have friends, but I feel alone, I have a partner, but I feel unloved, I have people who care about me, but I feel isolated. I am a person who, when going through a bad time, distances himself from everyone. I recently just dealt with a crisis in which I distanced myself from many people and did not talk to many others. I distance myself for my mental health and that of others. My environment is used to it and I am used to the fact that when my crisis ends I go back to talking to my environment in the same way I have always done, however this time it is different, my environment moved away and distanced itself a little from me. I have never been a very sociable person, but nor a very antisocial person, however I have never had a best friend, I have never had a special person or a special circle of friends, I have friends, but I know that no matter how special I consider a friend of mine or a person around me, he or she would prefer another person a thousand times over me. It's the feeling of not feeling important to anyone that has been consuming me. I recently spoke again with old friends I had in high school, they are still as close as ever and seem somewhat distant towards me, I understand why, I walked away first, but it is sad to know that maybe if I had stayed with them right now I would feel that I belong to what they are "a group"
and I think that's the problem with me, I can't feel like I belong to something or I end up moving away from what I love or want the most. Everyone has someone they will consider their priority, but I don't have someone who considers me their priority. No matter when I prioritize someone, I will never be equally important to them.
Someone else happens?
sorry for the long text :[