definitely not poetry but it's something (?)

Last night you made me cry, and today I will do it until I drown, my red eyes that still look at you with love and devotion as if I were talking about a saving angel, ridiculously adoring you, adoring and loving the cruel and hard look with which you least value my love, my dear and sweet torment, filled with bruises my heart only so that I am not able to leave, victim of your punishments and my torments, my heart that turned upside down when you finally seemed to love me properly was deceived and cruelly poisoned, harshly disillusioned, and almost also withered, my heart that sometimes seems not to bear any more of your painful kisses continues to beat more slowly now, each time close to dying in solitude, I bet that if it did it wouldn't matter to you either, you would bury it under the tree that I filled with memories and you would let time completely fade it, a sad story for a stupid heart that for some reason did not want to give up