i've taken all the piercings out,
i refuse to let my eyebrows grow back thick,
the day you see evidence of my smile
in lines near my nose
i'll pump my cheeks full of
everything, smoothing out the surface.
what if i did my makeup weirdly again?
would people stop seeing me
as a reflection of their desires
and pay me little attention?
when i am no longer pretty?
will i fade back into being nobody?