The beginning of a chapter for my book

Johnny Appleseed

God, how do I say this goodbye? It’s hardly a goodbye, I can barely look you in the face. That doesn’t mean I don’t care about you. You may just be the only person I truly would die for. But this, I’m not dying for you. I would never die for you this way, it’s pathetic. Maybe I’d do something heroic or something really fucking stupid. Either way, you’re the only one I would do that for. But this isn’t it, I guarantee you.