I met this guy at the beginning of March because we work together and he was the one who trained me. We became super close really quickly because our manager told me to quote "be his hip" for our entire shift, so we basically did everything together that night, took our breaks together and when the both of us and his friend all got sent home early, we all hung out and smoked and he got his first tattoo holding my hand the first night I met him.
After that we spent all of spring break together and were talking everyday, on April 1st right after our friends 18th birthday, he kissed me in the park and told me he was falling for me. I was already head over heels for him at this point and we started like, talking talking. He said he didn't want to be official until we went on an actual date.
A weekish before our first date, my family found out that we had to move because our landlord is selling our house and they want to move across the country since it's too expensive where we live.
When I brought this up to the guy, he said he would stay with me and we'd make long distance work. On our first date he met my friends (we went to a function at my school, it was so much fun) and he got along with them so well, he was kissing me all night and telling me he loved me. He says he wants to spend the rest of his life with me and I believe him, but when I asked to be my boyfriend that night he said no, he doesn't want to do long distance. It broke my heart but I understand, he's been in a long distance realtionship before and it was very damaging to his mental health. He said he wanted to keep doing what we were doing until I moved and then stay friends while I was gone, but that he wouldn't date other people while I was gone. I said I didn't want to date just to break up and that we should stay friends.
Execpt I'm not really good at staying friends? Neither of us stopped talking to each other like we're together and we were still doing things that were for sure not what friends do, but when someone asked us if were dating yesterday he said no. We usually always say kinda or it's complicated, so it really stung. And then to make matters worse he still kissed me when I walked him home and he still kissed me when I walked him to his car yesterday.
I'm just hurt and confused, but I respect him putting his mental health first. It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt any less, though. I don't want to cut him off but I feel like I have to because I'm so hurt over it, but I love him so much and he's the light of my life. Every song I write is about him, my brothers love him, I talk to him everyday and hang out with him all the time, I love his friends and he loves mine. I want it to work but I'm scared he's lying and going to leave me as soon as I move because he doesn't actually want to be with me. He's never done anything to make me feel like he doesn't love me, in fact he shows that he loves me and is committed to me all the time.
I'd be gone for a year but I just don't know what to do.